Amazing celebration ang naganap sa 18th birthday ko. I could say it is one of the best birthday I ever had. Probably dahil maraming nakaalala kahit hindi ko naman pinaalala. 😂😂 I didn't expect na may surpise yung mga dating mga kablock ko nung 1st year college ako. Marami akong nakilala noong nakaraang taon. So maybe it is an advantage dahil marami akong kilala, maraming bumati.
Maybe that was my purpose. Purpose to get along to the people I'm not closed with. Dahil sa events na nangyayari sa school, ang dami kong nakilala. Pati mga upper year, kilala ko at yung iba eh kilala din ako. Mostly, mga lalake kaclose ko.
I don't understand as why did I find me a lesbian. Dahil ba sa siga ako? Haha. Di na bago yun. From elememtary, high school hanggang ngayong college, dala-dala ko pa rin ang ugali na to. I'll tell you my reason.
I did this in purpose. I did it to protect myself to be courted by some guys. Boyish ako dahil gusto ko magplaying safe. Gusto kong makaligtas from hurting by a guy emotionally. Saka na ko magboboyfriend kapag nakagraduate na ako sa college at maging isang CPA. At makahanap ng disenteng trabaho to help my parents.
I thank God, my parents, my siblings, my friends, my classmates, and to everyone dahil nandiyan sila. To guide me. 😊
Marami sa mga taong kakilala ko, walang nakakaintindi sa point of view ko. No one can't understand.I feel so alone always kahit marami akong kaibigan. Dito ko sinasabi sa blog ko because after years, I want to read this again.
To God who has given my the talent and used me as his instrument to help people, thank you po, Lord.
To the people who are reading my latest entry in my blog, hindi po ito update. Parang diary ko na po ito.
Sa mga kaibigan at mga kaklase ko na mahal na mahal ko, stay as you are, okay? Walang magbabago. Ang magbabago, sasapakin ko. Hahaha.
To my family, I love you mommy and papa. I love you din sa dalawang kapatid ko.
To my future self, alam kong binabasa mo ito as a throwback. Advice ko sayo na maging mabait ka at stay humble na laging sinasabi ni mommy. Stay your feet on the ground at huwag maging mayabang, okay? Tumulong ka sa kapwa mo. Huwag lang magbabago! Hoy! I know your attitude! I know your two personalities! Pakabait ka always ha. I love myself! Be noted! 😆😂
P.S.
If ever na dumating na tayo sa tamang edad, my dear self, at wala ka pang boyfriend, gawin mo na ang plano natin na maghanap ng sperm donor na may dugong magkaroon ng kambal na anak. Haha.
Hanap ka na kung nag-aalala ka na. Pero tandaan, know thw consequences of your action, okay? :) last drop na!
